MY JOURNAL

SUNDAY!

2004-02-23T03:06:58Z

I DONT LIKE SUNDAYS!
sundays are boring. and skool is the next day, thts no fun. im gonna cut skool tommorw... JUSTKIIIIDING. today i went furntiure shopping with mom and then to work. exccittting. last night i went to jenna dunkerunies, i love that last name. it was fun. we hot tubbed it out. and megan beat me. :( :( :( man o man. I WANTED TO WIN!!! ryan went to howies today. finally. i bet he had loads of fun.
sleep time
goodnight

wednedsay

2004-02-18T20:08:46Z

this journal entry is dedicated to a very cool man. this man and i have grown over the past year in math class...both of us failing...together...we combined our failing forces and strived to become better ppl. now we are in the same soc class and i would just like to say...alex kozack..u are the man!

neways...

i have work today, horay for work. woo wooooo. lunch was the best today! me and dori n megan made a Dasani water commercial, for fun? i dont know how to spell it. but it was awesome and i guraenttee it is the best water water commercial ull ever see! school was good, i missed megan. she wasin colorado. life is so empty with out her. im serious too. hahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHA.

yesterday was tuesday, a not so very good day, i dunno why. i stayed after and ended up kicking B edwards hacky sack into the light in the lobby. im so bad at hacky sac. i will strive to be one with the ball. Dori wore a vicously short skirt and everyone was calling her a slut. even the librarian!!! wen she lifted her leg to kick the hacky sac it was just exposed to the world (me doug and bryan) but whatevvverrrrrrrr. I LOVOVVE U DORI!

on monday i went snowboarding with amber and teresa to shawny mt. it was a grand time. they took me on all the scary blacks which i dont enjoy. id rather mingle down the other trails, or go to the terrian park. either way, it was a good time and i almost died in the car cuz the seat i was sitting in came undone and i flew back into amber. LEETT THE GOOD TIMES ROLL!!!!!!!

cya

woo woo

2004-02-15T19:48:41Z

hahahaha!!!!

happy late valentines day!!!! <3

i love youuuu

why hello there partner! today is the day after valentines day...the day to celebrate lovers across the country...the day to get together and have fun with your partner...xoxo...the day to have safe sex! JUSTKIDDING! anyway, valentines day for me was a fun time. i went over tanyas with talbot,steph and danielle, and we watched totoro. woo woo. and later that night sum more cool kids arrived and we hung out. i didnt have a date lastnight. :( whatev. tanyas wicked awesome basement made up for all that. HAHA! ok im gonna go

"FACED! SCRATTCHHMOTIVVE!"

grand

2004-02-14T04:31:49Z

so today....i went snowboarding!! with amberrrr! (only shes the coolest skiier around) and teresa and dori. twas awesome. i did so good today, for me. i was all like, going off jumps and shiz HAHA! its so excccitintingin! megans in colorado and i just talked to her. thats sum inteense hillage there. she said a green circle there, is like a black diamond there. craazzzy! id be going on the freaking bunny trails, which i dont think they even have. but neways, yes. today was grand
yesterday me buttz deenny and ray went over jons and watching cabin fevver.. scary..oaoaooao.. and then ppls went over carls and colins last night. i wanted to go to the movies with bryan..but my moms a loser and didnt wanna come out at 12:30 to pick me up cuz we would be seeing a 10:30 movie. whatever, that is kinda late. we'll go to the movies bryan dont worry, scouts honor. hahahaa
o k wee ll b e d t i m e
goodnight

soo nice out!

2004-02-11T20:31:49Z

helloo!!!
today was a good day!! these past 3 days have been so awesome, well today wasent as good as the monday and tuesday but whatev, better then normal. im so wooooooo!! ahahahaha. and the rest of the week is going to be so lovely also! tommorw im leaving to go snowboarding with sum boyscout troop at elk mt. for 3 days. im goin with Lauren Talbot,morrow,stephM,chrstina,lindz,dori,teresa and maybe spectorial! WOOOO!!! it willb e a grand time! and were gonna make a feature film and enter into the film feztival. HAHA! unforunitly were coming home valentines night so i wont be able to go out that night. o well. and then theres no skool monday so sundays like a saturday! YEEEEE! hold on my cats meowing viciously at me cuz he wants food...
ok, man my cats a little bugger.aww no i love him so much.
i made everyone special valentines for skool tommorw,. ;) hahaha, theyre awesome. i dont really like valentines day, last year me and sean went over doris and did...nothing...that was a fun valentines day. haha. wow, thats pretty sad now that i tthink about it. whatev. i lloooove dori and seann! ok im going to work now with teresaa tarn. fun fun. BYEBYEBEBEBBEEBEYBEY!!!!

HI!

2004-02-10T01:53:35Z

hey you!

hmmm so lets see...today was like one of the best mondays i eveer had! i dont know why i was so happy todAY! itwas just, a good day. skool wasent even intresting or anything so psh. well, saturday was the dance, woo woo. it was really funnn! at first i thought it was kinda boring and i hate going through will the whole taking picture ordeal. i went with bryan eeeedwards, hes such a cool cat. i had lots of fun with him, i like him. but anway, at the dance me and megan decided that we cant dance, so dori wanted to give us lessons! it actully worked! go dori! i think me and megan got better and we danced with bryan and jon. woo. soo nearer to the end of the dance it went by soo fast andi didnt wanna leave. :( after, we wentto kyles for a lil shindig of a time, it was fun. everyone was tired and falling asleep so we just sat and talked. i wnt home at like 2 am. i couldnt sleep that night, so i dont think i slept much. then sunday i went to work and what not and that was my weekend, it was fun! and here i am on this monday night, i need to go dry my hair before it poofs up. haha remember my poof bangs. last year...wow...i needed to get rid of those horrid things. ok goodnight journal

why heelloo

2004-02-07T16:31:37Z

dear journal,
today is saturday. its also the winnnter ball. i hate saying that, i want to say just a dance. ok, so last ngiht me megan and dori were at megans from like 2:30 til 6:30. we basically just sat in her room and didnt talk while we read things. cool! thats a good friendship. and then, we went to ashley lewises house for a surprise bday party for christina quenny, who im not even freinds with...we left at 8 cuz we felt a bit out of place. and then me megan and beth went back to megans and i played tony hawk for 2 hours as they talked about people. im getting good at that game. well, for me anyways. and then we played ping pong. woo woo. it was a fun night. i enjoy sitting in a basement and not doing anything rather then going out and talkng to a bunch of ppl. antisocial....is fun!
so today. is the dance. im not qite sure what everyones doing yet..i think im going to megans with jon and bryan and then going to sams. and then the dance, for 5 hours. ahh, thats soo long. and i dont even enjoy dancing. what am i gonna do?!?! AHH!! ok, ill make the best of it, and then either to kyles or julies. i still dont know which one. i feel kinda bad cuz like, allll my north friends and shizzle are going to kyles so i wanna go there, plus hes like my neibor but then i do want to go to julies also. and ithink its too late to go to both. what tooo doooo. im not getting my hair done, i feel that it is a waste of time and money for one night. whatev
PSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHH
cya

thursday

2004-02-05T23:20:15Z

hellooo

today was qite good..skool was nifty. i enjoy 4th lunch alot. i think its fun, i would want it like everyother day or so. steph is red! haha! she got burnt going tanning. wellllll, after skool sum north ppl camee. twas fun, i only hung out with jon mostly though cuz i had to go to mathematcis clinic. arrgh. then me and megan went to play tennis. we discussed our feelings on how...we really have no friends. just think about it. YES YOU!. like, pppl are your friends, but if u really think..they rnt at all. i cant explain. i just know. so yes that was fun. so yea, mynew goal is to get in shape. i dont care bout fat, cuz i know im not fat, i just know im outa shape and i need to eat healthy. on the way home from tennis mr G asked to stop at mcdonals, i was good! i said NO! megan broke down, she had to get it. haha. so then the aroma of great food filled the car and i was just awaiting te minutse to get outa there. ahh. now iwant sum fries. AHHH. mauahahaha!

i <3 food

i have a basketball game tonight. fun!! i like basketball, tis FUN. and im having spasms to go snowboardingggg. i had a dream lastnight and i was sooo good, i was going on jumps and stuff amazinly. yessss, i wana gooo! sum ppl are making me angry. they dont like this person who i like, and the person i like, maybe he was a fag back in the day but its just annoying cuz there always telling me that hes a fag and ill be degrading myself if i do anything. leave me alone, dont worry bout it, i can like whoever i feel like liking!! I LIKE YOU! YEAAA!!!

"U GOT TO RISE ABOVE IT" - cool runnings...its on tv RIHGT NOW

byebye

the sunnn will come out tommmmorw!!

2004-02-04T00:21:03Z

the sun will come out tommmmmorw
bet your bottem dollar that tommmmomorw
theyll be suuuuuun
just thinking about tommmorw
clears away the cob webs and the soorrrrow
til theres NONE!
when im stuck with a dAY! thats grey! and lonley!
i just stick up my chin! and GRIN! and SAYYYYYY!!!!
OOOOH THE SUN WILL COME TOMMMMMMMMORWW...etc

from annie. ;) woo woo i was just cleaning and i found those songs in my room, and they fit today cuz the weather sucks. its rainy and now icy and slushy, i hate this. dori came home with me to work on our grad prject. we kinda failed that...instead we ate a whole box of girl scout cookies. yes!
wow my mom wants to go to that bob marley reunion thing, hahahaa! i could just see her there with with a bunch of stoned drug infested losers. that would be so entertaningn.
this morning i woke up feeling ill, i had a headahce, and i thought it was the start of a sickness, but im not qite so sure it was...i hope i dont get sick. that would ruin the dance. :( and that would not be fuun.
i miss lauren morrow
random
truenes
i miss bryan nowicki also
:( :( :(
byebye

vanzzzzzzz @ 2004-02-01T22:40:00

2004-02-02T03:51:55Z

well, the patriots just won the superbowl. woo woo. i really dont care for football too much so it doesnt excite me. i just got home from julie cooocchias tonght. it was a fun time. i was a bit on the antisocial side so me and buttz and megan just kinda drew faces on plates and drew fruitbowls on our faces. and eggs. and hashbrowns. n bacon. yea...weere weird ppl. but it was afun time all in all and all, and all. AND ALL. lastt night i went to the movies with meg and dori, and denny tagged along. we saw BIG FISH. i like the band reel big fish! haha ok that has noothing to do with the movie. it was a weird movie...megan cried, dori was like wtf i hated it, and iwas laughing. soo, i dun really kno if it was supposed to be funny or sad or what? whateeeeever just go see it. it was good. all in all, all in all, and all. AND ALL. wtf? ok.

ummm, then we met up with jamie and jon and nikki at like 10. young bryan edwards was sposed to come to the movie also after his suit shopping but the tickets were sold out. :( im going to the dance with him. fun times. and then, me and dori went over megans after the movie and played tony hawk 3 for basically 2 hours, but o right, we ate shyyat loads of icecream b4 that. i really dont understand us 3. me, megan, and dori. were like, the weirdlest antisocialist ppl together. and we get in retarded moods too. i feel like running.

im scared to run outside at night, i think sumones gonna pop out and rape me. but i dont like running during the day either cuz ppl stare at me. so there for, im gonna be in the worst shape ever. i need a running partner. i wish my cat could run like a dog. that would be so awesome!! milo running down the street along side me. with his fat flapping in the wind. by the way, my cat is the fattest cat EVER. ask denny. its true.

mmmhmmm i dont wanna go to skooooll tommorw i have math homeworkkk and i dont know how to doooo it! la lala lalalalala. ok goodngiht

boo

2004-01-31T20:25:04Z

today is saaturday!! i had a bball and we lost. hmmf. o well. the team was really good.
well lets see...thursday me denny zhanna amanda and carl decided to leave soup for sean on his front stoop. cuz hes sick. :( so we got him soup and left it for him. denny got his liceses! finally. and gess what. my parents are FLAMING. they wont let me drive with him. i got sooo mad the other day and freaked out on them. ahhh its so anooyig there the only parents i know who even care, and dennys a good driver. ahhaHAHLFHLASKFHKLAShfraiosl'hf szklfh!
ok
im done. gawkl;wh tg awi hgadklghsdjkghdsjkghsdkjghsdjkgh . ok DONE
so yesterday i had work, and then we went to ultrazone!!!! MAN! I LOVE THAT PLACE. its soo fun! it wa slike me dori tommy steve jill zhanna amanda clayton avery steph kara and umm i dont know who else. but whateer we played 2 games. amazing. and then i came home and watching THIRTEEN with my mommma. it was kinda scary actully., the movie was about a girl who wanted to fit in and stuff and got all messed up with drugs and bad ppl, and cutting herself. eh. it was scary.
im never gonna do drugs. first there just gay, and second, too scared ill probly like it. and then keep going. so im not intrested in trying them. woo woo. im not getting messed up in all that shyyat. it just messes up everything else. if ur bored i suggest u go rent THIRTEEN, its a good movie.
today i think im going to the movies. im not sure yet. okk im bored i think i need to go help my mom wirht my stuff. FUN! aaaaaaaah ha laalalla. maybe ill walk to kyles. byebe

another snow day

2004-01-28T18:06:58Z

wow, another snow day, exciting.
not really.
i dont like the snow anymore, im so sick of it. the only good thing out of winter is holiday season and snowboarding. other then that, winter shuld die! and these snow days are just gettng old. they're boringggggg. ahhhhh, i have work at 4 so i cant really do anythign today either.
WHAT EV, haha, that was defeiently doris saying, so everyone who started saying it STOP NOW.
whatev.

no one cool lives in my neibrhood either, cept amber of course. and kyle. i dont know whre they are today.
ok im going to go do sumthing good.
cya

vanzzzzzzz @ 2004-01-27T15:47:00

2004-01-27T20:55:38Z

hey boy n grls,

today was a half day. i actully did want to go to school though, b/c any more days and were up to the summer mark. which means that we would have to go to skool into the summer. and that is NOT cool. NOT grand at all. so pshsshh. schools good now. no more snow days. well yesterday was a snow day, and i did nothinggg... i sat around my house just like im doing right now...

school was so pointless today, i dont know why i went. we did nothing that would ever help us in the future. and u know what, i think skools a bunch of crap. i mean, ppl need to be educated up til like 8th grade. and then in highskool, they shuld be able to take courses in whatever they want to, for there future. like, if they wwanted to be a scientist. they could take all science courses. it would make more sense.

my dream job is to be a professional photographer and travel around with world with national geographic. i dont think it would ever happen but its cool to dream. i really just wanna become a teacher, marry a teacher, have kids, have summers off, own a shore house, and live happily ever after. the end. that was vanessas life. hmmm i wish we knew who we were gonna marry right NOW. so then like, u wouldnt have to worry aobut it. but all those ppl who marry highskool sweethearts. i can not see myself marrying anyone in my skool. so i dunnoo....HMMMMMMM

k cyaaa

snooooww

2004-01-26T03:15:23Z

i pray for snow!!! turn your pjs inside out and pray says my friend. DOOO IT. i dont want to go to skool tommorw. i dont feel prepared
today iwent driving around with denny and megan, we visited our ever so great frands at zany brainy, danchase and jack! wooo! and then we froliced through a field in the park? it was so grand. and then i went to work.

i feel bad for my cat. hes so bored. cuz its so snowy and cold he doesnt want to go outside. so hes just pacing back and forth looking at me with those cute little sappy eyes. wow, if anything happened to my beautiful baby milo id be so crushed. i dont know how i would live. i really think id kill myself. well, probly not, but id be so sad.

i <3 milo onkow 4ever! YEY!!!!!
wow this journal entry is dedicated to my cat.
i want to do yoga, does anyone want to take a class with me?!

vanzzzzzzz @ 2004-01-24T19:54:00

2004-01-25T01:11:57Z

try and try again, thats what its about. today i went snowboarding with megan and dori. then we met up with tommy teresa amber and kupka. it was a fun time!! i think i got better. kupkas a good teacher. i went over sum jumps! yey! well, i didnt "jump" i just went over them. it was still cool! buttz hurt her foot. ehh. there were reeally hot guys there today. ahh. now im just sitting at home relaxing. i was supposed to go over bryans but i dont know where he is. o well. i enjoy sitting here. ill watch the disney channel later, mauaumahaha!

last night i went over cherrys. it was kinda a weird night...me dori meg and danille sat in his kitchen the entire time throwing cards around and breaking down mentally? hahaha. well yea. awesome!! AWESOME. im not really in any deep thought at the moment. but actully today me and megan were thinking. to try and try again is the only way to learn from failures. we were gonna go off the half pipe and megans like wtf why not just go?! its better then sitting here and regret trying it later. so like, wenever ur scared to do sumthing u only live once, GO FOR IT. even i know i dont do this. im a wimp sumtimes. most of the time actully. im just not a strong person. like at concerts, id rather stand and watch and just like get hyper at the songs i feel like it. i hate getting into the middle of the crowds and getting knocked around. i was watching this show on "the history of mosh pits" which is pretty random but like, they said that ppl like them to get anger out. just like pushing ppl around. but really, i dont have any anger to release, plus i have like no muscle. its trueeeeeee!! whatev. HAHA

so neways, i think im gonna go play the sims now. ahhh i miss that game. yay!! peace, goodnight

actully no, i have more to say. in social studies the other day, we were discussing about how we dropped an atomic bomb on japan during the pearl harbor time. and my teacher told us to write down what we thought about this. saying if we thought it was good that they dropped it or not. that really bugged me, b/c like, our teachers are basically just provocing more violnce into ppl, like its an ok thing to drop atomic bombs. well, my whole class thought they shulda dropped the bomb and iwas the only person in the class to raise my hand for no. i dont really belive in war. i think its wrong. and my class just kinda looked at me wen i said it. they thought it was weird. i dunno, i think im a hippie. haha. ok well i just felt like writing that cuz it made me mad. our freaking genertaion of ppl are gonna start dropping atomic bombs on ppl when there mad. nice. cya

friday

2004-01-23T20:50:18Z

wow!!! IM WRITING IN PURPLE! aah hahahahaa! my day was poop. i was all dizzy and tired alll day, and ppl were making me angered. im going snowboarding tommorw. its gonna be soooo cold out. frigid. im gonna where my awesome blue ppuffy coat. but its friday so thats good.

ok i dont feel like writing. cya

this is my title

2004-01-23T01:55:57Z

this is my live journal
ive stopped writing in my normal journal. writing takes too much energy. and im right now im eating fantastic bread. mmmm. its qite tasty. today was ok. nothing exciting. i was antisicla today, but thats how i like it. i shuld be studying for math but i try so hard in mathematics.

k im not really writing, ill write later
goodnightttt

PROCRASTINATION

2004-01-20T21:35:54Z

thats right. i hate that word!!!!! PROCRASTINATION. it just sounds so nasty. ahhhhhhhrghghgh. but, id have to say that word duz basically sum up my life. Im not that bad when it comes to doing my basic everyday homeowrk, but with studying..wow. i just cant study. its getting me so mad. i dont know how ppl can study like, all day. i know teresa can. i know i cant. i get so sidetracked. i had freaking 5 day weekend to study for midterms and all togehter i think i studied for a quality time of 20 minutes. thats absolutly ridicoulus!!! and my hardest subject. MATH. is so hard to study for. thank god i love my teacher and she gives me the answers to have refrenece, so i have sum what of a clue on what im doing. i have a freaking 64% in that class. tahts HORRIBLE. its with out homework though so i probly have a 70. but im so scared for midterms. like, horrified. if i get a D on my report card i will slap myself and i wil be so mad at myself. i cant help it. i try so hard in math!!!! i stay for clinic like everyday!!! i just dont get it. unlike my brother who has a D in chem and doesnt try at all. he could be doing better. like right now, im sitting here looking at my math book and my brain is crying inside. why cant midterms be like...to write a story. that be ssweet. ok no more about this crap. i just needed to vent this anger about math.

ok so today at lunch it was crazy. first off our table is me dori megan and sean. wow. we are just so cool. we have no friends! hahaaaaaaa. jkkkk. we like it that way. GODS. but megan was being a fool and was like "wow im so flamboint!" i dont even know how to spell. and doris like megan wtf? lol. and shes like why in the world would u say that. does anyone know what flamboint means?!? cuz i think it means flimzickle, megan things it means gay (wtf? lol) sean thinks it means to float and dori has sum big honors english definition. yea leave me a comment on that one.

im gonna try to study now....sumone motivate me please. byebyeee

celebrate!

2004-01-19T22:20:11Z

today is martin luther king jrs. birthday! yay! he did so much for ppl. i love that man and i dont even know him. hes one of those ppl who made a diffrent in the world. 1 person out of like 1000000000000 ppl. i dont think im gonna make a diffrence. i mean, i guess everyone does make a diffrence. a verrrrry small diffrence. but if i become a teacher or sumthing i will be teaching the little children their times tables. but its not making a big diffrence in the world. actully, if u do think about it in the long run it could be. that little boy could be so smart at his times tables and become a great mathemitition. and that great mathemition would work with a great scincetist who i taught. and togther they would come up with the cure for cancer. and those now older men, learned there great skills all from me. Mrs. Onkow. the greatest 3rd grade teacher ever. :)!!! so actully, everyone makes a diffrence in the world.
everyone in this world was born for sum reason or another. dont give up. if your thinking depressing or making sucide plans, dont do it. that may sound goofy, but at this point i dont think so... so many ppl are becoming so depressing its actully frekaing me out. so think twice before u do anything. just think, if i was that 3rd grade teacher, and that cure for cancer was born all from me teaching those little boys, and i killed myself there would be no cure and id helping no one.

wow, that was kinda creepy, that was alot of thinking in the last 5 minutes. ill write later. peace

e-a-g-l-e-s!

2004-01-19T00:15:10Z

the eagles game is on now..and im not watching it
HAHAHAHAHAAHAH
i shuld be but it doesnt intrest me. so yea, im sitting here being anti social! :) :) i may do sumthing later..if i want to. mum uaauaha
last night iwent to jennas party. i kinda feel bad cuz i talked to like everyone there cept jenna. sorry if ur reading this jenna. lol . happy birthdaY!!
it was a fun time, her house is so super aweomse. we played pool and had an orgy on the bed and stuff. HAHA.
byebye

there ya go

2004-01-16T21:46:47Z

"Mr Madison, not anywhere in your coherent rambling did you even come close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. We are all now dumber for having listened to you. I award you no points, and may god have mercy on your soul."

wow. that was the best part in that movie.

El Rodeo

2004-01-16T19:07:48Z

hiyaa darlings
its not friday mornings..well..friday afternoon. and guess where im not. AT SKOOL! we dont have skool today. woot wooot!! just got home from doris house. last night i went over megans and we were bored. we started making a a movie. 'Milky megan and vaginal vanessa' twas pretty good but then batterers were dead so we decided to paint. hahaaaaaaaa. we painted her basment walls. i panted a big yellow happy face! :) and then we played tony hawk 4 for a good amt. of time. and then at like 11 we went to buttz and slept over. dori fell asleep early and me and meg decided we wanted to stay up all night. it didnt work. we went to bed at like 5:30. good enough. jeesus christ theres sum sick stuff on HBO at night. uchthy.

im started to get worried about like everyone. everyones becoming depressive freaks and its making me sad. why cant everyone be happy!!!! like the good ol days of elemrtny skool. 6th grade was so grand. i would do anything to go back. its so amazing, not having any worries. having like your 2 best firneds that your with everyweekend. not caring. ahhhh.

i wanna move to neverneverland and live with the lost boys.

wtf i got liek 4 hours of sleep but im awake.

good ol ms phelps

2004-01-15T18:50:51Z

Oink1717: i love ms phelps
Manda0404: hmm pasionatly???
Oink1717: very...
Manda0404: hahaha i knew it all along
Oink1717: dude how can u not love that women!?
Oink1717: shes going through a mental breakdown all i wanna do is hug her
Manda0404: hmm lets see she made me give her my back pack wen i barrowed a pencil
Oink1717: true...
Oink1717: well maybe she thought there were drugs in your backpck
Oink1717: me u and sean make that class amazing
Manda0404: haha i do enjoy that class
Oink1717: i knew u loved her
Oink1717: :-D
Manda0404: oh man
Manda0404: u no all my deepist secreats

what else is there to say about that grand women?!

Manda0404: i wonder what ms phelps's favorite food is

i guess there is more to say...

araarrghhh

2004-01-13T22:33:23Z

aarrrrghh. i dont have a date to our skool dance. and i want one. annnnd, yea. basically thats all. ummm so if u wanna go with me tell me?! lol ;) ;) jjjjjk jjjjk. actully im not. this is creepingme out. im looking outside and its supposed tob e like dark and the sun is still setting.h... scary. ...

So I looked in your direction,

But you paid me no attention, do you.

I know you don't listen to me.

'cause you say you see straight me, don't you.

On and on from the moment I wake,

To the moment I sleep,

I'll be there by your side,

Just you try and stop me,

I'll be waiting in line,

Just to see if you care.

ILL ALWAYS BE WAITING FOR YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU

coldplays good. so are you. i have nothing to say. peace

MONDAY. JANUARY. 12TH. 2004.

2004-01-12T20:33:26Z

hi,
today was so so. asi asi. nothing exciting and i had a stomach ache all day. i think it was pants. thes pants that im wearing are getting really tight. i dont really like delias pants. theyfit all retarded. but o well, so yea. i just ate tums. mmm. usually mondays i like to sleep but im not that tired this day. i really need to do homework but i dont want to. and outside it looks like total crap. i hate this weather. i want it to be summer.
'summer' its like the best word ever. no skool. hotness. swimming. trying to surf. going to capemay with megan. vacation. doing nothing. no homeowrk. no worries. its so amazing.
'winter' its like a horrible word. coldness. more cold...really cold. boring. skool. gay.
ahhhhhh i want summer. only about 5 months til it starts getting warmer...thats soo far away. AHHH. the only good things that came out of winter have already passed...my birthday and chrsitmas. and christmas break. and that went supppper fast.
im looking outside right now and its just making me cry inside. the trees are all boring the grass isnt green and the sky is the ugyliest shade of grey ornage ive ever seen. theres supposed to be a snow storm on wednesday night. great. now i wont even be able to go anywhere cuz the roads will be blocked.
i wanna go to austrailla.
my reletives live there, and when theywere over the kept talking about how nice it is there right now. ahhh.for them its their summer. hot surfers. warmth. thats what i need. my mom things im going into winter depressing hibernatin stage. haha. it really exsists too. its like, a stage that ppl go through in the winter that dont like the winter.
why am i in love with this song?!?!?
LET THE BOOOOOOODIES HIT THE FLOOOOOR!! gfaskgahsgklashgash itss sooo good! i cant stop listeinginggggggg to it. i have the urges to play pool right now. i wish i had a pool table. ok u know what. i thinkim gonna go sleep. or do my homework. sumthing. i always say these things and i never end up doing anything. maybe ill go running or sumthing. for once its not like -20 degrees out today. psh sh psh psh. goodbye